This too Shall Pass - French

I don't believe you have to be better than everybody else. I believe you have to be better than you ever thought you could be.

- Ken Venturi

Hey all,

So what a morning, I have been trying to get hold of my University to register for this year as well as get my results for last year's exams and well, I wrote 4 exams in October and November and I passed 2 and failed 2. I feel down about the 2 that I failed because, well with all my many many many years of studying, I have only ever failed twice, French during my first year and Mathematics during my time studying Business Consultancy. And well it sucks, a lot especially since I am not paying for my studies - The Bank of Mommy and Daddy is footing the bill and we all know how African mothers can be.

But such is life, will just let it go and move forward. Problem is, I am finishing my International Relations and Diplomacy degree and I need to learn a second language and the options given to me are French, German, Italian, Portuguese, Arabic, Spanish and Afrikaans. I really really REALLY want to learn and perfect French for the selfish reasons that I failed it before (and I refuse to let a language get one up over me) and well.......my dream guy is French and I want to be able to converse with him in his native tongue!!!!!!!!!!!!! (I don't have a guy yet, but in my mind he is French and I NEED to learn it- finished and Klaar)!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Might, I add, I lived in Austria for 7 and a half years and I speak, understand and can express myself in German, but really what will that help me when my dream Husband (to be) is French and I live in Sweden but that is NOT the point!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!And the other options are not to my liking, though Italian is not soooooo bad, but I don't think my French husband (to be) will appreciate the fact that I speak Italian as well, German, Swedish and English are ok, but Italian?

What to do, what to do.

ini,mini,myni,mo.......

Hello, you looking for me?

There is no freedom like seeing myself as I am and not losing heart.

- Elizabeth J. Canham

So long

Hello
are you still looking for me?
Am I the same girl, you remember?
I grew up, you know.....

I learnt my lessons now,
can I go on living my own life now?
I am scared to walk out that door
am scared of what is out there
you protected me for so long

Every step seems like my first
every mistake, seems like my best
every error dries my thirst
it seems all I do is make a mess

my flesh, my skin, my own
its all me, isnt it?
This is who I am.
Is this what I look like?

My smile, my joy, my laughter
is that what that is?
this song, that plays in my heart
this medley thats starts with the beating of my heart
so sweet a sound, that I begin
Is that me?

These tears, so salty
so real, they come from me?
its been so long...
I forgot how good I am.
How great my voice sounds
my every flesh and pound
I am proud to say, this is me
Here I STAND.

We have yet to meet .....

Do your little bit of good where you are; it's those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world.

- Bishop Desmond Tutu

Hi all,

So, I recently decided that I would be off Facebook for a month and lucky for me I still get notifications through my Hotmail. Just a bit of background to this story. I 'know' 'met' this women through a friend that I have and we began chatting and exchanging life stories and so forth. We both come from Namibia and know the same people, but since I left 8 years ago, my life went in a different direction. So, I told her that I was following The Secret and had minor successes, she told me that it worked beautifully for her. Anyways, I had recently bought The Power and when I was chatting with my new friend she mentioned that it wasn't yet available in Namibia and she couldn't wait to read it when it hit the bookstore, so without much thought, I offered her mine. I didn't know when or how I would get my copy to her, but I just said I will gift it to you. A few weeks later, someone from Sweden was flying home and I asked that she take my copy to my new friend down there and well this morning after 2 months of waiting for the book, my friend through Facebook sent me a message that she got it.

I am trying to think of what the point of this is, and I guess, its just basically, that I felt someone else needed something at a particular moment more than I. Someone who is far away and I have yet to even meet, yet through something as simple and beautiful as a book, I am forever linked. It just makes life much more wonderful all these little steps I took to 'meet' this women, buy this book (for my self) and send it to her, and yet in all respects she is a stranger, yet we are kindred Spirits. Life and God really does work in mysterious ways.

p.s I am not affiliated with The Secret team nor anyone from there, I just love the book and the message it gives.

Blessings and Love

Happy New Year!!!!!!

First say to yourself what you would be; and then do what you have to do.

- Epictetus

Hi all, I hope thus far 2011 has been good to you. Well it has to me, I met some new people and decided a new way of life for my self. I basically decided to Let Go and let God into my life. I decided that I want a better relationship with my Creator and thus I will have Him on my journey.

Also, I decided to begin detoxing again but this time in the end move into a vegetarian lifestyle.

Also, I decided to stay off the social networking sites and the internet except for research and blogging. So if you don't see me on Facebook, now you know why, eventually, I will delete my account, but for the next month, I will not be on Facebook (and I dont have Twitter or other sites if there is anything apart from those lol).

What else?, Ohhhh my paperwork came through, so I can finally begin my Swedish courses and also my French. I am just waiting to hear from my Uni and see what happens this year with studies.

Plus, I can work YIPPEE for SKIPPEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So money is mos def in my immediate future.

I am very excited about whats happening with and to me, I can wait to begin learning Swedish and French, as well as finding a job and becoming Financially Independent. And of course more photography, some paintings, some writing and TRAVEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Plus all the other stuff on my bucket list.

So catch you soon.

Blessings and Love

New pictures of Stockholm part 2

You may wonder, 'How can I leave it all behind if I am just coming back to it? How can I make a new beginning if I simply return to the old?' The answer lies in the return. You will not come back to the 'same old thing.' What you return to has changed because you have changed. Your perceptions will be altered. You will not incorporate into the same body, status, or world you left behind. The river has been flowing while you were gone. Now it does not look like the same river. [The Book of the Vision Quest]

- Steven Foster

Hey all,

I hope everyone had a fantastic Christmas filled with Love, Family, food and Presents. Here in Stockholm, our Christmas was a bit different this year, as my mom was fasting and my sister spent hers with her boyfriend and his family, so lunch was left to me. But that is part of my round up for 2010.

Yesterday (27 December 2010) my siblings and I took a boat tour around Stockholm and this is the result and afterwards I was so inspired and really just didn't want to walk up the road to our house so I decided to remain in town and take pictures.

So here are more photos of Stockholm!!!!!! Enjoy!!!!!!! First, the boat tour.

It really was Slippery on deck!!!!

The Swedish flag.

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Icy morning

Not the boat we took, but I just loved the power and size of this one.

And Now onto Stockholm!!!!! These are just a few (very few) but I really liked what I took with my camera so I added them. Hope you like them as well.

There is only one tram line in Stockholm - No 7, so I took this shot.
I call this the PEACE Gun!!!!! I actually don't know what its called.
The Nobel building.
The spot where the Prime Minister was killed.
I love these bike's!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Santa!!!!!

Luck is believing you're lucky.

- Tennessee Williams

Hi Santa

So, this year, I was good really good. I was a little naughty but for most parts very good. I ate all my veggies,I exercised, I even fasted a few times during the year, I was kind, considerate, helpful and kept a positive attitude. So ummmmm yeah, here is my Christmas wish list..... feel free to send me everything or just a few things but please not less than 5 items. I have been really Really REALLY good and I can give you names of people who haven't, so there........I am just saying. I know people........

Firstly Nico my baby camera (which I love Dearly) needs a sibling and I really want to get him this I will even name her Niki!!!!!!!

My music player died a terrible death a few weeks ago and I want to replace it with this,

Hair Products - Everything from a denham brush, to hair milk, hair butters, Shea Butter, Henna etc.

Santa,

Sweden, need I say more.....

and some La Perla,

Some Chanel to go with the La Perla

some Mac cosmetics as well

also, some cook books,

and a White Mac laptop.

Yep, thats about it Santa. I am very sure, my previous mail was lost ( I don't know how seeing as I am now closer to you than last year when I was in Abuja) but I figured sending you an email message was the best way to go. P.s dont come down the chimney, longgggggggggg story. But I will have some 3% fat milk and chocochip with oatmeal cookies for you.

Afropean Queen,

you know, the good girl.

My Bucket list for 2011!!!!!

When people keep telling you that you can't do a thing, you kind of like to try it.

- Margaret Chase Smith

Oh my, well the year is almost over, 11 days to go actually. I cant believe this year has gone so fast!!!!!!!! So will post about all I have done this year before the end of this year, but for now, its on to my Bucket list. I decided I don't want to to have resolutions, just things I want to accomplish by the end of 2011!!!!! 29 things that I will cross out!!!!!!!

1 Travel - in no particular order, these are the places I want to go to: Goa, Mumbai, New Delhi, Paris, London, Cairo, Athens, Marrakesh, Oslo, Copenhagen, Dublin, New York, Barcelona, Amsterdam, Madrid, Seoul, Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka, Antigua, Bahamas, Cuba, Dubai, Abu Dhabi, Seychelles and Brussels.

2 Get my drivers Licence.

3 Learn Swedish, French & Spanish.

4 Learn to play the piano.

5 Learn to play the guitar.

6 Get 3 tattoos (wrist, back and ankle)

7 Get 2 piercings (nose and Belly)

8 Visit a meditation retreat.

9 Get a pet - name her Lola ( a dog would be fab)

10 Go to concerts have a few people I would like to see.....

11 Visit Italy for a whole month - May (my birthday month)

12 Fly first class

13 Go on a cruise - hopefully a Caribbean cruise.

14 Learn wine appreciation.

15 Go skiing.

16 Participate in an impromptu snowball fight.

17 Take a proper cooking class. I want to be a domestic/kitchen Goddess!!!!!!

18 Go bowling.

19 Become a Cheese connoisseur. I love LOVE cheese!!!!!!

20 Finish and Publish my first novel.

21 Be in a commercial and get paid.

22 Spend a week at a 5 star spa. Luxury!!!!!!!

23 Create a You Tube video.

24 Swim with dolfins.

25 Ride a camel.

26 Ride an elephant.

27 Get my astrological chart made.

28 Food to try - Truffles

- Cheese fondue

- Oysters

- Escargot

29 Get my portrait painted!!!!!!!!!

Yep just a few things I want to accomplish in the next 12 months. There is another special one but that one remains close to my heart............

I cant wait to start crossing things off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!